my search to understand the bigger picture

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

How Do I Let Go of Frustration?


Such a nagging word.

Once it gets ahold of you it's so difficult to rid yourself of it's effects.

But that's how I'm feeling right now with my running. Working 2 jobs has got me so tired that it's incredibly difficult to wake up a few hours early to hit the road. Usually by the time I get home I just want to hang with my wife and daughters. Once they are all in bed I'm so exhausted that all I want to do is climb in bed. That's if I've made it home by 8. Half the week I'm usually working until midnight or so.

So I'm frustrated that I don't have the energy, or the time to run as much as I'd like these days. Here's the real issues. There's not much I can do about it. The more I allow frustration into my life, the deeper it's tentacles dig into my mind and emotions. And before you know it, it is driving my life, my attitudes, my emotions, and even my actions.

As I sat back this morning, I realized this is a part of my life that I haven't given over to God in a while. And that's why I struggle. I would love more time and energy to run, yes. But more than that, I'd love to no longer be a slave to a hobby that I love. So this morning, I ask you Holy Spirit to come into my life, and fill this void that I've tried to fill with running. Remove all my frustrations, and help me to find satisfaction, fullness, peace, joy, and contentment only in You! I am tired of something so trivial impacting my emotions like this. Help me stay attentive to You Father, and to only find joy in You! Thank you for giving us all things that we enjoy doing; things that breathe life into our innermost regions. BUT, forgive us for those times that they take over, and we gave a greater place of prominence in our lives to them than to You. I don't get nearly as frustrated when I don't take time to be with You, and that's wrong. Forgive me Father. Thank You for loving me as I am! I love You Jesus!

Will you pray for me today? I don't want to be bogged down by this. I want to experience all that God has to offer me today, regardless of what's on my agenda. What are you struggling with today? And, have you given it over to God?